Stop Drop And Roll .....

OK ... we are stopping the past photo journal visits. I have definitely changed seasons ... last night I realized I have picked up the (next stage for me) in my grieving. ANGER~ yes anger is the stage I'm in now. The ADD has been affiliated with so many of my decisions in my past ... I was notoriously naive but smart and intuitive as well, so again the disorder hid or remained invisible rather.

There are many many things I want to write about but I do not because they have to do with some pretty personal issues ... this will be difficult to work Bella's Blog into the mix. My temptation is to run away and hide. What do I fear .?. ignorant people who assume. I'm a straight talker and sometimes people think because I process and feel certain things strongly that I may live by those things or that that I'm then ruled by this . Makes me mad that people do this .. I have a complex mind but my heart is very much in a place of minute by minute reformation ..this takes willingness AND I tend to process externally not internally ... I work on the internal processing ... it has been a huge step for me and I rather like not having to verbalize or write to help my mind process grief and or matters of life. Well I will be thinking and looking into "Anger" wether I like it or not. The hard part of this phase is that there is really no-one to get angry at ...so where and how do I do this?? We will see ! :)

I have a beautiful mind and I'm thankful~

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I read the last post's archive topic .... What stands out to me is the permanence I was dealing with then... it was painful and it has been everyday since but I make a decision to deal with it and compensate where I can. The offering of knowledge and apologies was cool to read about .. I have a big heart and see this as I read back.

I have a beautiful mind ~

Wind and its results ..

This picture can be found in Octobers photo work .... bellasarchives.blogspot.com


The winds have brought change … picture today is yet another look at the past. You get the photo from October but a new outlook today drawing from what I wrote then … a real live weather change in human form.
I’m not ready to comment yet on this past entry so I will just start with the picture. I hope to see good stuff and important “changes” in myself. I work at this “me” stuff unlike some and not as good as others. It is ALL very good whatever the case …
I’m gauging my changes in many ways. Today, by looking back… and I need more time to note my mind (then verses now)…..So I will stop here. My challenge to you ~ read the old post with me. I will even tell you the name of the entry and how to find it J http://bellasarchives.blogspot.com/2006/11/winds-must-visit-me-so-i-may.html

I will be back to comment this weekend.

Unamenetebelle

Zoe

Get wisdom then understanding though it cost all ......

Why is it so important to get understanding ... or in other words (discernment, comprehension, and interpretation) ? That is why I am here at Bella's and because of this I have ventured further out and have stumbled across more.

I'm getting reacquainted with a friend from 20 years ago. She is married to a man who has ADHD (16 years) ... telling already, very telling. I'm sure this will be very interesting as we share. I have not seen her face to face yet, we just talked on the phone, but I hear the grace and stability of character in her voice ... it was comforting ... and it brought back memories of being around her strength. One subject we touched on was sensory disorders ~ all that I can say right now is this .... if she brings comfort to me just with her voice and the re-acquaintance and remembrance of her character .... I can only guess that she indeed has been a major blessing for her husband.
I have found that getting understanding is costly. Sometimes you hurt or risk your "human" reputation in the process and gain judgment and rejection, as well the golden egg (understanding). If it will cost all that I have ... I will pay it, as I already have. There are people I know that have a different air about them in regards to "me" just because I have Bella's Blog ... Bella's is helping me and has helped others AND I'm getting more understanding in the process. Costly but worth it! Wisdom is something I can only pray for and I believe it comes with age as well.

I have a beautiful mind, that at times has cost me the ability to have a better life for a day or more, but I will continue to be thankful for my mind!

*Prov. 4:7 Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom.
Though it cost all you have, [a] get understanding.
Scripture taken from the HOLY BIBLE, NEW INTERNATIONAL VERSION®. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 International Bible Society. Used by permission of Zondervan. All rights reserved.

Still waiting ...

The picture today is from a few days ago. I'm still not feeling 100% so not much to say. I will be around when I get my wind back.

Thankful for the beautiful mind God blessed me with~

Seasons Change.....

Season change and I often wonder if this is a metaphor for us as people to learn from. We should always be changing .... for the better.

I'm changing .... My thoughts about ADD/HD are seeing the positive side of this beautiful mind. However this does not cure the stuggles I have.

There has to be a reason for the all the seasons ... all the different climates around the world. There is an intelligent design encompassed within all of this~

Seasons change and so am I.

I have a beautiful mind and i'm thankful for this ......

It's jus a matter of time~

I have the minor flu bug-nevertheless it not fun. it is just a matter of time... waiting to feel better.