Reply to the 1/26/07 comment (see below this post).

I want to thank whomever wrote the comment you all can find below this post. Faithful are the wounds of a friend, deceitful are the kisses of an enemy. I actually wrote the 26th's post "No communi-cado Is Communicado" for a different blog and decided to put it here as well...I shoud be more direct more often ... this is great!

Do I feel wounded by your truthfulness ..?... NO because everything you said is right on. I could beg to differ with you on a few points regarding ADD/HD but your message to me causes me to talk about what I have not been talking about here at Bella's due to some sort of insecurity. I can now choose to let your words launch me into talking about where I am at now.
I have been getting confronted with the very things you speak of. Life and death are in the power of the tongue and when used, I will eat the fruit (in my life) with what I produce my tongue...how I sow ... how I profess daily matters a ton.
My boss my sister and I were talking about metaphysical laws two nights ago and how it is being said that negative energy runs at the same frequency's positive energy in the brain, according to certain studies. Therefore If you speak and think negative you will receive negative and like wise for the positive. Someone out there is saying this is as much of a law as gravity. POINT .... OUR attitudes .. professions ... beliefs run like current and create or destroy. Now put free will and God into that mix. Add to that my professions here and your observations and I think you have made a point well taken.
I wonder ... are you are Prophetically gifted?
Here are more 'random" thoughts about "the comment"
*There is nothing like a good crack in the A frame to get someone motivated to move into the next season at hand.
*Saying I have a beautiful mind over and over has re-mapped my mind ... that is why I say it publicly.
*Now days I'm having thoughts about the vast majority of ADD/ADHD diagnoses as being far more than a "medical diagnoses" ... I'm thinking it is a people group that has been left behind in some respects and misunderstood ... my thoughts are evolving/changing....I have changed.
*I told my 15 yr. old son over one week ago it is a new rule in our home to speak out positively (not to be in denial) but to profess despite how we feel and the circumstances at hand. I told him, to do this deal in life we need to be on the same team. *I am going to read him your comment so he knows God speaks to me and puts a fire under my feet as well .... I will humble myself in front of him and show him, as I teach him, I'm being taught!!
*Whoever you are out there ... you are right ....
*How about it Zoe ... how about a prosperous, healthy wealthy life and NOT the past baggage full of low Hummmmmmmm .. *I'm now kicking that low hummmm freaky frequency out of my life one or more lies at a time.

**Last night I stepped off a lower landing in my home and folded my left foot over....I was not able to move ....I was on my way out the door to go to Kenpo for the first time in months. I was to give my sons girlfriend a ride home and I told the boy .. "I cant drive" (tears/pain). My son said "you can drive, you can drive" . I looked puzzled at him and he said .."I'm thinking and speaking positive". He had chosen his first positive words in the midst of a moment he knew we were bound to ... I smiled at him and he smiled back, he could see I was pleased with him! I did not put his micro spec of added sarcasm down AT ALL, as he was being a team player the only way he knew how. His girlfriends mom came over and looked at my foot as she is a nurse. I did not drive, I got a little medical attention and I was happy that despite how things worked out my son spoke positive ... now we ARE heading in a different direction ... training our beings to metaphysically attract the positive and positive came.

I have a beautiful mind ~ I'm glad I have resisted the temptation to ask for a new one at the end of each entry here! Indeed, I have been tempted many times ... but I have refused that negativity ~

Comment Published from 1-31-2007

Below you will find a comment left to me from yesterdays post.
I will make a second entry to respond ....
Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "NO Commun-icado IS Communicado ..":

We have free will right? We know what God really wants for us don't we? Of course we do- sometimes we just don't want to take that road because "it's too hard" vs the road that we know is really right. Keep telling us that you want honesty and convince us that you will really listen and eventually we'll be more comfortable being completely honest. I'll take a chance and put my head on the butcher block and be completely honest. Perhaps my honesty will inspire and not just hurt. God gave us free will...you have more control of your life than you know. He only wants what is truly best for us because when we are at our most honest, most healthy, most giving (due to receiving the abundance he freely offers, willing of course) it is only then can we TRUELY reflect the "in his likeness". Do you really think that he wants us to go around and slandering his name by claiming that you are such a devout Christian person when your "claiming" things that is negative (I have ADD or I can't do this or I don't have the means to do this). If we are in his likeness than shouldn't we be living in love and absolute truth and abundant wealth and health? It's more of your choice than you think. Keep saying "MY ADD" like it's your God/idol and that is exactly what you'll get. He always gives us a way to change things but I doubt he'll do much prayer answerin' when you don't do what you know he wants you to. So you lean on the ADD/ADHD crutch until you perhaps see/admit that it really is your free will choice to be where you are at today. The thing about hearing God's voice is, generally we only choose to hear parts we think we can handle or deal with. Because to hear the whole conversation that is continually going on requires truly listening or perhaps accepting EVERYTHING he has to offer...not just the "poor me, I have this problem and God allowing me to go through this". No it's generally a consequence for the choices that we make- what we put into our body, what we watch, what we listen to, what we think. You have the free will to change anything you want but if all you focus and talk about is what is not perfect, than that's all you'll have in your life. We have more power than most of us even try to tap into- WE ARE FEARFLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE! WE ARE MADE IN HIS LIKENESS. How about striving to living more on Php 4:8 for a while and see how much things change for you. At least strive to praise what is good and pure and true and lovely. Yes you keep saying you have a wonderful mind...how about actually taking that a step further- you have a wonderful life, full of wealth and health! You plant seeds of I have ADD and this and that, you get what....Corn? Watermelon? Abundance of _____? You fill in the blank. What you sow is what you reap. You can stop the vicious cycle or teach your children to list to the father of lies too. But you and you only are solely responsible for what you plant. Sure the doctor's gave you some "seed" but it is your choice to plant them. He is a gracious God full of love and mercy. He doesn't want this for you...You want this for you. Think I'm wrong? Feel free to put it too the test. It's not easy at first but it is better than slowly dyeing because we accept what some person tells us what we are; and then turn around and except that as God's truth! NO ONE HAS THAT RIGHT! WE ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE! ...and MADE IN HIS IMAGE! Not what the doctor's say you are or aren't! You can be another statistic of a doctor's diagnosis or you can dig in deeper and search for what God really wants for you. You get to choose....free will...whatcha' gonna do with it? Perhaps that's what this blog is really about...the awesome change that people get to see when you choose to fully line up with his will- when you choose to do IT REALLY TAKES TO CHANGE...to become more like him. Not just with a few things but every aspect of your life! You know exactly what it is...we all do. You can always start with doing/giving up some of the small things that he has been telling you to do for years. Imagine how much hope that will bring to others when you tell them that there is actually a way out of what other people tell them they are. Now that would be powerful, that would be giving God his rightful glory! He always gives us a way to fix what we mess up. Are you going to be one of the ones that teach people how to heal themselves / accept healing? Or just stay in the disease? You seem like the latter at the moment but I'm guessing you'll turn that around. Your a bit stronger than some and you keep saying you relish the truth. This is MY honest truth. You've given permission to be honest know lets see how if you really meant it. This is my perception. Does my truth fit "your" truth? You really do have a beautiful mind- I look forward to seeing the rest of it. Now to see how honest you really are...to publish or not to publish. Your put in the position of wether or not to be completely honest. A little intimidating? Don't be so hard on people not baring there opinion/truth when you haven't always proved that you can handle it.

NO Commun-icado IS Communicado ..

Random thoughts ...This is a long one ... come back later if you are busy! LOL!

NO communication IS communication and I try to be impeccable with my words and I respect others as best I can.

I'm an honest woman and attract myself to "birds" of the same feather ... or I fly away~

What does that mean ...?...
A. When one asks or in a subtly suggest wanting to know something about me (out of respect) I acknowledge the inquiry (most times quite literally).
B. I usually respond in 1 to 3 different ways.
1. Be open (and honest) of course and give them what they are looking for ... an answer, not a run around.
2. I will say, I don't want to talk about that right now OR I don't want to talk about that period.
3. I don't have the words right now ... I need to find them and get back to you ... sometimes the words come right after I say that sometimes not. This response usually means there is a worry of misinterpretation, rejection or I have many strong emotions attached to the subject matter.
4. Timing for some matters is everything .. I have learned to wait on opening up the can on some matters .. again .. timing is key.
5. I think outside the box ... I may start with an answer then an elaboration of thoughts, a philosophical whimsical trail of insights and more are very likely to evolve.
6. Sometimes my mind goes bike riding and I forget what I'm saying .. rabbit trails ... silly jaunts to blah blah blah...THEN suddenly I find the original path again and I finish my thought... I almost always finish a thought. << (#6) ADD/ADHD characterisitcs in me ~
7. In regards to honesty and communication ... I try to be my own best friend ...
RULE IN LIFE: Why be in denial ... why not listen to others opinions of me (unless they are being ugly wicked and have no loving purpose).

This insight is priceless .... what I just shared is the foundation to any and almost every conversation one could have with me at this juncture of my life... we all change and grow ... all that is listed above may change someday ... but for now.. this is who I am.

A pet peeve I have in life is when people avoid ... skirt and the like. Upon a detection of things like this I immediately encode in my brain that experience. I then proceed with fascination as to how many masks I will get to see this person put on. I wait to see if the real person emerges ... we can all tell when one gets real ... we all feel it in our souls ...

I love people ... I am fascinated by the different personalities .... truly evil people should make anyone get self defense training ... truly loving people re-fresh me immensely.

Mirror and Glass ...

There are two "refrences" in the scriptures that came to my heart this morning. One is about looking through a glass dimly ... meaning when we see spiritually, we only see in part.
The other refrence is about how we can look in the mirror and indeed see ourselves, but as soon as we turn away we forget what we look like.

I'm not a theologian but I believe this quick memory loss speaks to how we forget our sins and shortcomings ... kinda a warning I presume......something we could possibly put under our hat to keep us humble. This is why the Holy Spirit was left on earth to be a helper and more. I know I need all the help I can get.
I have here today, old pictures and new ones. Unless you fallow my blog you may not be able to tell which ones are which.
Both sets of photo's work with the mirror effect. As I reflect back, I see changes I have made and more changes I need to make. I did not just look at myself one day and realize my needs for change ... I had feedback and honesty from others. NOTE: When I looked at myself I did not see my need for sanctification at first..... but I loved my neighbor as myself and I started to seek change.

I believe some of the most detramental problems we as people posess are the ones we do not see OR at least we cant seem them very clearly. If we truly "SAW" we would change on our own prompting. I also believe these sins or shortcomings, if you will, are the very things that hurt others and ourselves the most. I need more than a mirror ... I need Gods help and loving honest people in my life.
I'm glad I sought change BEFORE I saw more cleary ....
My son has reaped the biggest benefit from this season ... he has seen a model for change like never before (no pride intended)....at least i'm looking a little better to him as my heart manifests all that is within it on a daily basis. I thank one of my best friends D___ for being open with me ... he was loving enough to wound me and boy did I wound ... but I knew it was all good.
Yes, even when it hurt I went to the FACT there is refrence to our human blindness and I was determined not to be a fool to the knowledge I had.....wew...I have made it this far ~

I have a beautiful mind ~I give thanks for all that God has given and that His mercies are new every morning~

What a difference !!

Please note: I have full permission from my son to share the following information. Last year my son was getting a straight up (F-) in Latin. Last report card he was getting an (A). Finals are again, getting graded and in came the results ... I was informed by my son that he got a 96% on his Latin final this week and there were 200 points total. He pointed out to me that last year he was getting 2% and 3%. This turn around happened in all his classes after med's for his ADHD and a special person who asks about his progress on a regular basis.....here is the evidence, the published information out there states ADD/HD patients respond best to coaching. We tend to get busy upstairs and in the process a low self esteem snowball affect takes over. A little you can do it takes us a long way ... from F's and D's to A's and B's.
I read about the sabotage issue last evening (seeing yesterdays post). The information stated that the behavior of sabotaging is a sub-conscience attempt to self protect. Author, Sari Solden encouraged us to take the time to recognize and slowly change in stages. I like that idea ~

Thanks to God for my beautiful mind ~

Seeking Out Sabotage with Random Thoughts ...

Sometimes life can be Black or White to me and I find myself temporarily color blind.

It is times like these here at Bella's when I find myself discovering once again. Sometimes the discovery process makes me feel like I will be alone for the rest of my life and here again I'm confronted with BIG lies that will take BIG faith to overcome.
When I take in everyday life, my mind produces creative streaks of lightning, so there is "magnitude" in all that I see, whether it be big or small. Some scientists spend their lives mathematically calculating explosions and what will get a man on the moon. I have spent my whole looking into peoples eyes .... if I saw pain it would impact me greatly. I actually remember looking UP at adults and taking them in and having many feelings run through my veins... Was I a child with a beautiful mind or is this all typical?
And please, don't get me wrong, I'm not a "reader" of mankind ...

I read on this sabotaging issue in regards to ADD in Sari Soldens book. I have to say I did quite the opposite of sabotaging relationships while growing up as I love people and wanted no-one to hurt... but these days I find myself doing this sabotage thing and I dont know why....but I'm glad I am seeing this. The good news is, there will be some healing in store for me.

I will end here with a "TO BE CONTINUED." I have needed to think about and Identify any sabotaging I may unconsciencly be up to. Tonight, I'm just one tired woman writing in her blog the night before and posting the written work on time for tomorrow.
I have a beautiful mind ... I'm thankful ~

The Guy And The Girl ...

Saturday night a girlfriend of mine called me and asked me to come out and meet a fella she is sweet on. She and I have over twenty years of history ... I'm honored to be trusted.
I liked this man ... he shares our faith, he does not date, hasn't in two years and goes to church every Sunday because he DESIRES to!! My girlfriend excused herself and he looked at me and said ..."I am scared" ... in essence he said, I'm scared because ... SHE .... SHE captures me! I told him there is nothing to fear and added all that she is and would be to the man that loved her. I told him he would never meet anyone like her again .. my friend is the most loyal woman I know in regards to relationships. I see a match ... I feel it in my bones but will he do right by her?

The next day we did what ALL females do .. we deliberated (see definition at bottom). We both could see all the high potential's. The thing that resonated most in me is this ... he was open even in his fear. I noted in my last two post's many things that tie into what I'm sharing here today. In this case, I will document and fallow a common scenario in the world of being single as it goes forward. Here I can remark on what is common and uncommon. This guy is already uncommon which is good and is scoring points. Today he scored big time in my eyes.
As we talked,I got out a book I'm reading on kissing dating goodbye. I read aloud about taking the first step into friendship ... not romance etc.

HE GAVE HER THE FIRST FLOWER AND I BET HE DID NOT EVEN KNOW IT!!
I GOT A CALL .... So my girlfriend calls me awhile after we "deliberated" and informs me that she got an message from "Mr.Right" that went a little like this...
Apparently he explained that he usually does not date, but would like to make an exception with her ... and told her he would like to "commit" to building a friendship with her.
She was already in harmony with him in her heart and messaged back that she would love to walk "side by side" and build that friendship .... here we go!!!
I was SO happy to hear this ..finally I see a man with some character!! She got scared on me just like Mr. Right did last night. I said ... has he left any question in your mind as to exactly where he is headed? She said no ... I called this fact out and said "then today everything is perfect" ... he has treated you well and proper and we will watch tomorrow come and go and hopefully we can say the same thing at the end of tomorrow and many days to come ... One day at a time, we dont even have to think ahead yet. The fear seemed to subside at these truths ... holding back the heart is not easy and we touched on that as well.
You may ask ..what is all the fear about?? Well many fella's use proper words, but RARELY have the actions fallowing up on his smooth talk. Women then wait, and wait and after the fella has moved on, we still wonder about that promise that was never kept, even if we never held the guys HAND!! Women have desires that root back from the days when we played with our baby dolls ... we never loose touch with our desires to be treated like a loved, adored woman who is THE ONLY one in the eyes of whom we love. I found this cute but true scroll if you will that SO matches a feminine hearts desires......
MySpace Codes from KawaiiSpace.com

If a husband were to memorize these truths and out of action and true love, let a woman know these things daily ... he would be translating her into heaven on earth!! IF a "Player" got a hold of these truths he could do some real evil because this stuff is what women long for ... it is what we dream about daily whether we realize it or not! I could say all this is just my opinion ... but I found the graphics you just read elsewhere ... I did not make all this up as I was going along here today! ;)
I have a beautiful mind and I'm thankful ~
***Deliberate \De*lib"er*ate\, v. t. [imp. & p. p. Deliberated;
p. pr. & vb. n. Deliberating.]
To weigh in the mind; to consider the reasons for and
against; to consider maturely; to reflect upon; to ponder;
as, to deliberate a question.
Source: Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary (1913)