I'm still alive and I miss this Blog.

I will be writing again. It helped me so much to come here before and talk about my ADD. SO much has happened. Maybe we can catch up!!!

What is up

I have FAI (AKA: Femoral Acetabular Impingement) Thus, I have been WORKING MY A FRAME OFF AT THE U OF M IN Physical Therapy!! First surgery (October 2009) I learned to walk again! Oh Gods Grace!!! Second surgery Feb,22nd 2010....on crutches for God only knows how long.

THIS is indeed Gruelling stuff...

Sigh, 9-12 month recovery, I'm 6 months out on surgery # 1 and almost one month on surgery # 2...

Try having ADD and a disability, I think I may drive myself nuts.

It has been 4 years of pain.....All that I want to do is walk my dog and pay my bills and be normal again ... It has been forever.

Sigh.

Thank you God for my beautiful mind. Hugs.

A HUGE BREAKTHROUGH!!!!!!!

I'm in counceling and my therapist started to tell me that she see's an autism connection with my ADD. I have been saying this throughout. I have been told by some that i'm not seeing right, they were wrong, my insight into myself was right on. We are talking more about this and someday maybe someday someone will listen. I can not tell you how wonderful it is to be heard and to be validated. Time to explore more, now I have more to write about. :)
I have a beautiful mind and I'm thankful!!!

Link

This is great information!
http://www.itvisus.com/programs/hbhm/episode_815_AdultADHD.asp
Giving thanks for my beautiful mind~

ADD/HD And Stress

My first goal in writing here was to talk about what it was like to go through ADD/HD mid-life diagnoses as a female. I wanted to let it all out even if it made no sense at times so people could get an inside look at what a beautiful mind electrically charged looks and sounds like. Sometimes it is profound and other times it is a mess.


After I was diagnosed and started writing here I got sick and was in bed for most of the last three years. I isolated myself (Lord knows I have done this before). I had to ask myself why I did this because this time when I chose this route I hurt myself immensely and intense loneliness has since taken it's toll.


I isolate for two reasons....I don't like rejection and I don't like feeling like a burden to others. This all stems from being so dang sensitive and having that mind that can break down fast under stresses. You see, I know full well when one shares their burden with another, automatically the one listening to the hurts and pains of the other human will carry their burdens whether they want to or not, its a normal human response. I did not want to be a burden to anyone and in doing so I have become severely lonely. Silly me. One way I can reverse that which I created is to write about it. This time I'm going to write for me not for others. This season of my life is ALL about loving myself and giving myself the best.


I have become aware that I need to "create" better outcomes for life circumstances. My latest creation was changing my hair color. We found a Goliath size kidney stone that broke me over a period of a couple months ending with surgery and pain levels that were worse than throwing a normal kidney stone. I felt cursed. To take care of my beautiful mind I changed my hair color. Yes, after 16 years of being blond I am blond no more and it was a lovely distraction from all the current physical pains that seemed to intensify the ones I have been having over the last few years. I like to think I prolonged my life a little more by converting stress in a creative way. Truly, I have a beautiful mind and I'm thankful.

Kidney Stone Week.Blah.

My body has produced a kidney stone that is 2.8 cm.
Surgery will be Fri Dec. 19th ... A second surgery may be needed.
I'm embracing the process......
See the pic of my kidney and "the infamous stone" ... The Doc. let me take pics of it with my cell phone. :)

No to stupid.

RE: People who have symptoms of ADD/HD. It makes my heart sad when I hear about these folks being called called stupid and more because of the HUGE lack of education that exists among our society. I look at people (ALL PEOPLE) differently now and my world has changed to be more inclusive and less exclusive. I have done what most people that I know with ADD/HD don't do and that is to change my "stims" ie: talking to much and the like. I have bent for others and because I know I have been judged for my quirks. I just wish this message could get out. Oprah, where are you when I need your voice? lol!!


P.S. We have snow In Minnesota!!!!! :)