Boo! You have been in disguise all of your life ... !

I was talking with a girlfriend of mine the other night venting my utter frustration from the fact that I KNOW people do not understand me, especailly right now! I cant blame them I used to treat certain people in life with a "C'mon get the job done" attitude. I never stopped to think that may be if they could have done the job right, they would have by now.
Here is a scary thought .... imagine waking up with a chicken suit on one day and the whole world inside and outside of you speaks TO THE FACT that this is who you are and sorry but such as life. Following this, you get a million revelations that go much like this ... gee that is why I like cracked corn so much! Now this story is getting close to being able to speak to this experience with some justice and is too close to how I feel daily right now. I cant wait to get through all the stages of grief. It is so strange that this process really can not be hurried, it really takes its course and I embrace all the pain as to NOT slow down the process.


As I said before, I work with an autistic child. My girlfriend has been working with special needs children for years as well and has a bachelors degree in early childhood educatiion.
She eloquently stopped my ranting and basically said...Zoe, you know it takes time for US TO UNDERSTAND our patients/clients etc. AS WE work in our fields of interest!
She told me about a deaf child she had worked with once and how it took her awhile to process...process.....process...then understand his needs based on his disability.
I then I validated this truth....I have a friend that is partially deaf and I habitually walked away while talking to this person for years, AND THEY READ LIPS - how sensitive of me right? Yikes !
We all in some way come to terms with various peoples needs in life. She said that "my people" will do the same ... come to terms with my biologically gifted mind and who I am ...then they will ____ I will let life tell that story.
I have been sternly advised as to what to do with certian stress's and people who are not supportive .... I'm informed that I'm dealing with a pervasive chronic lifelong disorder ... the proper friends, support and future mate will be a process of some delicate "hand picking" for the sake of my emotional health.
I give thanks for all of my friends and family ... I will keep going on as I have been given this time in life for a reason and I give thanks for my beautiful mind~

Today IS The First Day Of Something Beautiful

Today is the first day of something beautiful~ If I tell you exactly what that is you may not "stay tuned" to find out.

I will tell you this....

When 'profound' comes knocking at the door of my mind, my soul does 'sigh' and my minds eye begins to find~

No heaviness here or burden tall, rather the "penetration of emotional depths" wanting to be heard and heard by all~

Irrevocable is spirit, resonating into my bones, profound visits once again, leaving it's presence to be found~

A gift tied up In the Master of Love, injecting life giving qualities from above, bleeding "the greatest intensity" leaving nothing incomplete...I cant help myself..I then fall at Holy feet.

My soul then rises from the depth it just came from, alive with nameless knowings, the sum of them, still unplumbed.

Profound is for the thirsty who want a well of waters that will quench and continuously give, know this my friends, this is where profound doth live~




Definitions of profound on the Web:

showing intellectual penetration or emotional depths; from the depths of your being; "the differences are profound"; "a profound insight"; "a profound book"; "a profound mind"; "profound contempt"; "profound regret"
of the greatest intensity; complete; "a profound silence"; "a state of profound shock"
fundamental: far-reaching and irrevocable especially on the nature of something; "the fundamental revolution in human values that has occurred"; "the book underwent fundamental changes"; "committed the fundamental error of confusing spending with extravagance"; "profound social changes"
coming from deep within one; "a profound sigh"
heavy: (of sleep) deep and complete; "a heavy sleep"; "fell into a profound sleep"; "a sound sleeper"; "deep wakeless sleep"
situated at or extending to great depth; too deep to have been sounded or plumbed; "the profound depths of the sea"; "the dark unfathomed caves of ocean"-Thomas Gray; "unplumbed depths of the sea"; "remote and unsounded caverns"
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