Stop Drop And Roll .....

OK ... we are stopping the past photo journal visits. I have definitely changed seasons ... last night I realized I have picked up the (next stage for me) in my grieving. ANGER~ yes anger is the stage I'm in now. The ADD has been affiliated with so many of my decisions in my past ... I was notoriously naive but smart and intuitive as well, so again the disorder hid or remained invisible rather.

There are many many things I want to write about but I do not because they have to do with some pretty personal issues ... this will be difficult to work Bella's Blog into the mix. My temptation is to run away and hide. What do I fear .?. ignorant people who assume. I'm a straight talker and sometimes people think because I process and feel certain things strongly that I may live by those things or that that I'm then ruled by this . Makes me mad that people do this .. I have a complex mind but my heart is very much in a place of minute by minute reformation ..this takes willingness AND I tend to process externally not internally ... I work on the internal processing ... it has been a huge step for me and I rather like not having to verbalize or write to help my mind process grief and or matters of life. Well I will be thinking and looking into "Anger" wether I like it or not. The hard part of this phase is that there is really no-one to get angry at ...so where and how do I do this?? We will see ! :)

I have a beautiful mind and I'm thankful~