Sad By Sensory

Sad By Sensory

Well ...the journey goes on ....
Lately I have just happened to be talking about sensory sensitivity or intergrational sensory disorder ... same thing two different medical terms. My Doctor and I talked about this disorder as it is co-morbid with AD/HD and I can still hear the conversation go to ...there is no real treatment for what I experience.
Now some are physically sensitive to the point where one would get occupational therapy to help them cope with everyday life. Mine is predominantly internal from taste buds to my tender heart. KEY POINT TO UNDERSTAND...Remember that women have to fight for themselves on the issue of ADD/HD these days because they never knew it was not "just a male disorder." I'm speaking for voices of AD/HD women who have been labeled and tossed .... males who were hyper sensitive got the ADD/HD flag because it was NOT the nature of a male to have some of our sensory quirks... girls were just sensitive by nature. Here is where the ball dropped on females in the medical community and co-morbid sensory disorders. Sensory sensitivity present in my life has been labeled in many ways....labeled everything but what it really was .. SENSORY ..NOT PICKY ...now once again I know I'm NOT a bad person when I only enjoy certain parts of life. The sad by sensory that I noted in the tag line for today means this ... it is hard for me to be in relationship with a fella unless he understands the way I feel pain. I do not even want to go into all the details of my internal electrical fires that can burn on my soul at times ... I have hated this ...thus I have hated me...this I now recognize so no more hatred and the other stuff I'm trying to change. I know I'm made with a beautiful mind. Spiritually I'm receptive which has saved my life (literally) and people tend to gravitate towards my troubleshooting when in pain themselves. I can't seem to find anyone who can wade in my waters with me though ...if they did they would get a human electrical shock which usually manifests in ...ah she is emotional or something maybe lesser would be slapped on my being. I'm sad today because I don't know how to man handle certain aspects of thie sensory stuff. I understand it which is life changing ... but I want more ... that is why I'm here ... I fight for myself and others in the process.



I have a beautiful mind and I'm thankful~