Seeking Out Sabotage with Random Thoughts ...

Sometimes life can be Black or White to me and I find myself temporarily color blind.

It is times like these here at Bella's when I find myself discovering once again. Sometimes the discovery process makes me feel like I will be alone for the rest of my life and here again I'm confronted with BIG lies that will take BIG faith to overcome.
When I take in everyday life, my mind produces creative streaks of lightning, so there is "magnitude" in all that I see, whether it be big or small. Some scientists spend their lives mathematically calculating explosions and what will get a man on the moon. I have spent my whole looking into peoples eyes .... if I saw pain it would impact me greatly. I actually remember looking UP at adults and taking them in and having many feelings run through my veins... Was I a child with a beautiful mind or is this all typical?
And please, don't get me wrong, I'm not a "reader" of mankind ...

I read on this sabotaging issue in regards to ADD in Sari Soldens book. I have to say I did quite the opposite of sabotaging relationships while growing up as I love people and wanted no-one to hurt... but these days I find myself doing this sabotage thing and I dont know why....but I'm glad I am seeing this. The good news is, there will be some healing in store for me.

I will end here with a "TO BE CONTINUED." I have needed to think about and Identify any sabotaging I may unconsciencly be up to. Tonight, I'm just one tired woman writing in her blog the night before and posting the written work on time for tomorrow.
I have a beautiful mind ... I'm thankful ~